tears.
I really wish to express this to Mr♥.
But it takes alot of guts to face you.
My heart aches each time i face Mr♥.
My tears will start falling without me noticing.
How i wish Mr♥ knows how am i feeling.
Only God knows what im going through.
Only he knows how my heart is aching but Mr♥ is not there to mend.
All the promises that you make was straight BULLSHIT.
After what we went through, after ONE year & NINETEEN months, all that was just full of crap.
Those 'iloveyou' Mr♥ said to me was just lies.
I just want you to just be there for me, make me your first piority.
Was that so difficult?
I cant believe im so deeply in love with such a fool.
*crying*
Those promises you made, were just words.
Nothing but just words.
When i really need your comfort, where were you?
With your ARSE friends?
After what i gave you, took care of you, there were never an appreciation towards you.
But tears.
Yes, we both put up with this act that we cant stand each other.
I cant denied to myself that I HATE FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU.
I cant lie anymore that no matter how i hate you, but my heart cant let go.
SHIT Mr♥ for making me feel this.
So much i love you, so much i need you, you still dont care.
I tried being my best, i tried to change, be what you told me to be but all was tears.
Mr♥ & me knows that the fact that we cant continue this relationship no more.
But whats keeping us together?
WAS THE MEMORIES!
There just too much for us to let go.
If only i have that strenght to show this, to show what my feelings are towards you.
It's not easy for me to let this all out.
It's not easy for me to carry all this in me.
I only wanted you help & go through this together.
I love you, yes i hate you, but i cant live leaving you.
I cant bear to let you go.
♥♥♥, Tuesday, October 5, 2010 10:42 AM
Myself: Natashakid^^.
Dated:♥16-02-2009♥
