trying to smile.
The saddest thing that happen would just be right in front of you.
Can't let go of that feeling right inside, but now trying to escape the tears.
The crying hurts most, even when you don't shed any.
But God knows that how much i tried you won't undertsand the tears behind my eyes.
Every laugh that comes out from me, every smile, every happiness are all numb.
How i wish i could just turn back time & undone all my mistakes & let the life that i wanted being with you.
Being with only you.
No friends, no one but you.
Trying to stay calm, & cheer myself up but it's no use.
I just wih to be my old self, stop doubting, stop dwelling, stop thinking my just be my bubbly old self.
Start enjoying.
Pick the vodka bottle & just drown my sorrows in it.
Just enjoying life.
Yah, that's what i'll do.
But i just can't do it, my mind stuck to you.
It's hard.
But; i' ll try for myself.
♥♥♥, Sunday, June 20, 2010 2:13 PM
Myself: Natashakid^^.
Dated:♥16-02-2009♥
